By Sophia Aguilar –
At first, Maddy Edwards – who transitioned to a boy – was not allowed to see her brothers and sisters because “my parents didn’t want my siblings to see that. I understood because I knew their views. It hurt, but I didn’t hate them for it. I sacrificed my relationship with my family to try and be this person I thought I was supposed to be.”
But then they changed, and Maddy – and her then fiancé, a girl – were welcomed into the home.
“I started asking God, how did it go from them not wanting to have anything to do with me to them now allowing me and my fiance, who was a woman, into their home?” she tells on her YouTube channel.
God answered: “I gave them he spirit of love. And I have the same spirit of love for you, if you would stop running from it.”
“In that moment, I knew that I needed to de-transition,” she says.
So that’s what she did. Maddy is no longer Matt.
Maddy grew up in a Christian home. But she was quite the tomboy and bristled at talk that she needed to act more like a girl or wear a dress.
At 13, she stumbled across internet content about transgenderism. She felt relieved. Here was the solution, she thought.
“I had never liked being a female or felt it was who I was supposed to be,” Maddy recalls. “I thought I was meant to be a man. I never would have thought in a hundred years I would ever accept myself as a female.”
At 19, she began to detransition, taking testosterone and “presenting” as a man. She moved cities and no one knew she was born female. She especially liked how her voice deepened.
She was drinking and working and just living her best life, as she thought.
The distancing from her family was just the necessary sacrifice for her to live her version of freedom and the pursuit of happiness.
The changeup – being allowed to come and be part of the family again – brought a change of heart. “I have better plans for you,” God told her.
She broke off her engagement to the female fiancé and transitioned back to female. The de-transitioning, she says, wasn’t easy but wasn’t as hard as expected.
“It was this insane amount of love that I felt,” she says. “It overflowed into even self-love. I didn’t think I would ever love myself as a female. God just lavished so much love onto me that I started to see myself the way he did and I began to love the way he created me.”
God’s voice continued to encourage her: “ I created you perfect the way that I designed you to be. You don’t have to wear dresses or makeup or be the girliest girl around. I created you with a purpose exactly how you were supposed to be.”
